Friday, February 24, 2006

Trouble Brewing...

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"The Bad Politico Theory: ndi lahat ng politico masama. Lagi lang nakikita sa TV yung mga masasama. In the same way, ndi lahat ng tao masama. Lagi lang nakikita sa TV ...errr sa media yung mga masasama"

No classes kanina. This would be just one of the few times na I didn't like classes to be suspended. Aside from ayaw ko yung circumstances kung bakit walang pasok, andami na kasing sabog na sched. Plus the fact na minus one day from our last days in the HS. Argh... One regular school day to go...

Nagkagulo kanina. Rally, dispersal, Emergency eklat. Damit. Can't we get along. Sure ayaw niyo si GMA at gusto niyo kayo yung in power, pero still. Do we really need to stop the world to hear your bullshit. "Hear" is the imperative word here. Why can't we learn to have an open mind and get along with our lives? Is hostility really necessary? Why do you want to make a ruckus anyways? You whine and whine and yet you don't do anything to solve our problems. If you'll excuse us, we have things to do, and I suggest you do yours. This isn't blind ideology - it's just thinking practically.

There's hope yet... Everything's gonna be alright

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Running on Fumes

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"Rest when you're dead"

Dam. This always happens. I dream big, I start out waaaay strong, be consistent for a few weeks, then something chips my armor, and so my downfall starts. So ngayon, naaasar na ko. Grades dropping, focus is getting waaay lost and my fucking HS life is coming to a slow and agonizing end. My dreams of ownage are slipping. Past 2 physics LTs... kadiri... debate... kadiri... tourny... kadiri... I'm starting not to care about Fil, Arts and TD na nga eh. And personally, nandidiri ako sa sarili ko. Where's the friggin passion? The "last time na, lupitan mo na!", nasan na? Yung "all it takes" shit, wherefore? Nandito... sa utak. Sa kamay... nada. Senioritis taking over? I hope not. I still have around a week to redeem myself. I hope it works. I don't wanna end my high school on a forgettable note.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Some More Humble Pie

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"Now I know why I didn't get an org medal"

Dam. My confidence aura's getting the better of me. Hindi ko na siya macontrol. Math sumasabog, Sci LT very disappointing, CAT... well I never did like CAT. Now this, my biggest chance to shine, blown up. Fuck. Sige, I was overmatched, I faced the best they got. Or I waited for so long that medyo tinamad na rin ako. Or pwede rin na puros heart lang nga ako, and no satanic or byuriz. Or maybe I just wasn't meant to win. But the bottom line is: I lost. I wasn't as good as I hyped myself to be. And it sucks. It hurt more than a lowblow. Pride ko, pare, kinuha, dinuraan, inapakan, pinunit at binalik pa. Ouch... that'll leave a mark.

Pero yes, I still have my torn pride with me. And it wants revenge. It doesn't want me to sulk and give up. It wants me to push myself, to bring out all I got, to live up to my billing for chrissake! Want dont'l kill you makes you stronger right? And since it didn't kill you, you might as well kill it. Pero I won't take Gab's path (no offence, pre). Sure, heart did get me where I am, and it has kept me going forever. I'm not gonna trade my heart for a satanic. I'm gonna let my heart finish what it started, and get a satanic or byuriz on the way. I'm gonna get mine, one of these days!

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Bodabil!

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"Bawal kumain, bawal uminom, bawal kumuha ng letrato, bawal magtapon ng paputok sa entablado, bawal magliston, bawal maglinis ng kotse, bawal magtapon ng kamatis, bawal mag-ihaw ng isaw... sa loob ng bulwagan"

Bodabil rocked! Basta, astig! Can't put it in words, just a lot of laughter wahahahahahahahahahaha! Gusto ko uli manood!

Tonight, I'm actually studying for the physics LT tom, then sana matuloy yung sa chain reaction. Then on sat, tourney tapos habol for english proj. Sunday either chain reaction, arts, both, or none. I hope we do at least one of them.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Humble Pie

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"If life was perfect, then it would be booooooooring"

First, some normal stuff. Last tutoring na namin kanina. It was... a bit sablay. It summed up the whole tutoring year - crammed the night before, not really exciting, a bit repetitive but you learn a dam lot. And probably last labrep ko na yung kanina. And surprisingly, I did it early. wow... Last community mass na kanina, though wala ng year to year blessings :( oh well

Now the rant. Why in the world did I not get an org achievement award?!? Sure Garde deserved his gold. Ranny really did a lot of work so that would give him a medal too. Migna, well... goes to college training so good shot kay coach... And ako? I train my ass of every single training session. I do whatever coach tells us to do, a whole lot better than everyone else. I can lead, I can follow, I can be an example to all them shorties. I take charge when charge is needed. I don't whine, nor call attention to myself. I just work, period. And I've been doing this for 4 years now, running with Marco and EZ and all the higher echelon peeps. And yet, no love? just a loyalty award? Dahil ba hindi ako sumisipsip o in the limelight? Screw that! Sure, that ain't bad pero puta loyatly lang?!? Thanks for staying for 4 years, ganun?!? Screw that even more. Not even a measly bronze, or a thank you? It's hard to love when you don't feel the love back...

Pero no, I'm not gonna let my pride get the best of me. In these situations, there's two options: rant and cry all you want, or thoughen up and prove yourself. And usually, I take the 2nd choice. I don't back down from challenges. Coach didn't give me a medal kasi he see's that I still have a lot of potential, a lot still in me. Para bang hindi pa lahat nilalabas ko, and tama naman. I still got a lot up my sleeve, and I still got a lot to prove. 1st gen of the gs arnis program, and still just above average. Tama. Show and prove time again. Personal challenge: I will own the dual meet. I'll prove that I'm worth something. The silent worker will be recognized! If not, then I do have a lot to work on. And as always, I won't back down. Again, I'll work my ass of, and then I'll prove myself once more. And this will go on and on until... well, until I have nothing to prove. Meaning, forever to until I become dam good. Count on it! All it takes baby, all it takes.

I'm not asking for a medal or anything, just a chance to rise up

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Mind Games

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"You don't have to have four aces for the opponent to think you have four aces"

Madaya ang Ateneo. They brainwash the incoming freshies too much. They don't poison the other guy's well, they make their's taste better! Propaganda, I tell you! Pero, ang galing nila ah. And they do have the stuff to back them up. (and the food. ang sarap ng food! and they had a chocolate fountain/fondue. ang galin!) And well, matagal na rin naman akong biased for admu eh. Alma mater for 12 years ba naman. So as of now, 9-1 chance of going to LS... until the river comes. When the river of the UP results come, medyo ndi na ko all-in sa admu. Pero big bet pa rin haha! If reports are true, the river of dreams comes on Feb 18. Mark it.

And of course, mark niyo rin yung date na yun for our dual meet vs Claret sa Megamall, 12noon to mga 3. Announcement lang, hindi invitation haha!

And yes, we have mga 2weeks of regular school days left. All the projects are bearing down. For one of the few times in my life, I'm really feeling the pressure. Whooooooooo saaaaaaaaaaah.... Kaya ko to... Kaya ko to... Crunchtime baby... All it takes, all it takes...

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Pretty Petty

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"Gising na kaibigan ko, ganda ng buhay ay nasa sa 'yo"

proud ako sa prayer ko kanina, kahit anlabo nya
Sana sila'y may tinig
Sana sila'y marining
Sana kami'y makinig
Sana kami'y makilig

Mam Moca's back!!! Goodbye Jasper!!!

Bakit wala ng Whose Line? sa hapon?!? ... Bakit din minsan wala ng Simpsons'... at maikli na lang Kids Next Door? At nasan na yung Kingtuner account ko?!? ... ambabaw ng rants ko haha!...

Nakapanalo na rin ako ng sparring match! yey! and btw, 3rd career arnis tourney ko sa Feb 18, vs Claret. Sa Mega of all places! Confidence...

Nawala na talaga ownage aura ko sa math and p6. Losing grip, o tinatamaan lang ako ng senioritis? Hold on... hold on...

Monday, February 06, 2006

Drums Rumbling in the Distance

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"I'll get there when I get there..."

Another useless weekend, another eventful week. Same-old same-old... Though masarap yung lazy weekends, at sanay na ko sa trabaho days... It's getting a bit repetitive... and when finals are in a few weeks, repetitive's not good... But still, it's a brand new week. Enjoy the repetiveness :D

For the Ultra victims, rest in peace... for the survivors, keep the faith... for those accountable, sana you pay and learn from this... for those who would take advantage of this situation (na marami-rami pa rin), shame on you! Let's all mourn, learn and move on...

BTW, I (accidentally) watched SuperBowl XL kanina. And probly since ndi ako taga-dun, I couldn't see what the excitement was all about. Sure naaliw and nabilib ako and all (Rolling Stone performed at halftime. THAT was fun, seeing the old Mick Jagger perform like hell haha!) pero ndi ko nakita why all them folks are so hyped-up. It's a culture thing...

Friday, February 03, 2006

Serendipitous!

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"Good luck and bad luck (if you believe in it) is like a seesaw: minsan mataas isang side tapos biglang bagsak. Pero there's a balance between them, so you have almost equal amounts of either"


Aliw yung mga series of events nung thurs. Try to follow lang:

wed night - ndi mapriny yung mga tula for fil, so thurs morn paprint sa neo

thurs morn - may math hw at art proj pa pala, so skip neo and paprint sa lib instead --> ndi magets math hw, at ndi nagawa art, so Magic na lang with zo (2-0 XD) --> ndi chineck yung hw (pero diniscuss at gets ko na!) at yung art proj --> (reccess) no printing sa lib, paprint after class instead --> fil paper not needed pala (and no pagbigkas XD) --> free to dota after class --> rye would come pagdating ng "car" niya so alalay rye for his award thingy while waiting --> pagdating ng car, nadaanan si gab and babs so more dota peeps --> go to worldnet, and play alongside rye and raf! gg for me :) --> pc restarts, so :( and surf for a while --> person na rarely online is online, so chat kami for the 1st time in... 1 year? ohhhh -->after dota, aya si rye to tambay somewhere while waiting for "car" --> stopby at 711, where may 3 chinitas also tambaying. nice --> rye was going home na pala, pero he took me to hs na rin --> his bro was waiting pala sa hs, so good thing na nagdetour pa sila --> before going home, have haircut (the final 3x4 cut of my life!), where incidentally nandun yung claret boys --> sleep by 10pm

Ayun lang. Naaliw lang ako sa relationship nung some of the events. And, like I said, I had my (hopefully) very last 3x4 white-side-wall haircut, and I slept by10pm for the 1st time this year. In short, it was a memorable day :)