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Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"Ang hindi lumingon sa pinanggalingan... baka nawawala na"

Hi - Coldsnap!
Lo - crumble ang UP ):

To commemorate one year of Blogging, it's just proper to look back at the year that was.

I started blogging in 4th year High. I used Blogger just because of the simple reason that it was the one used for our class blog/website. I began to blog as a way of dealing with life - to rant \ relieve stress \ journal my life, or at least keep track of what I do. I tried to post every few days, once a day even, but lately I post around once in 2-3 weeks since I also have an LJ. So, I post my daily stuff in the LJ, and post my mushy/deep/long thoughts/reflections here. And yeah, that RPG-is-life thingy too.

So, the past year. That was my 4th year High, if ya don't know. Full of sleepiness, light days, CAT, cramming \ resisting to cram and owning. High hopes to finish strong, to do things never done before, to change. At least, a very dream-filled year for me (asleep or otherwise XD), where in the end... choke. Senioritis as the call it. At the time when I was almost at the peak, I tripped, fell and just barely survived (survival is relative). So afterwards... it was flat. Not bitter, just disappointed. And so, with that chapter over, I wanted to start anew. There would be a better me in college.

If things went in their "normal" way, I would've been in the Ateneo. Take Psych, still be with Aboys but also with new people, be in a familiar territory with familiar faces and places. And so on. It was set... but something happened. Something called UP and the Oblation Scholarship. When the UP results was it wasn't a shock. I would still be going to the Ateneo, I said, since nothing really was pulling me the other way. Right. A few days later, Alvin was the first to tell me those three words: Oblation Scholar ka. Waaaah! There, there's the push. Destiny called, and who am I to ignore it. And so, after some internal debate, I landed here. UP Diliman Psych. Like the Pagsi said: Chances, Challenges, Choices, Changes. Things I now tackle on a daily basis.

Summer was... well, summer. Arnis training + errands + lotsa rest.

Now... well, now I'm alright. Like I said, I'm fine here in the UP. It feels a little more homey than when I came in. And, I've learned a lot from the HS, the Ateneo. Not just the acads, but values, character. The Ateneo has prepared me enough, methinks. Especially 4th year. Teamwork, friendships, giving every dam bit of myself. I also learn from my mistakes: being more open, less reclusive. Take more risks, and live a bit more. And yes, to own. To pwn, to magis.

For the future... well, that's another story for another long post. Till then,
Ad Astra Per Aspera

- interruption -

gagi!
1 year na pala etong Blog ko! at hindi ko man lang namalayan?!?
dash bad...
aaaanyways

happy 1 year Losman's World!
thanks for keeping me company for the past year, and for the 100 posts we've had together

sana magkatiyaga akong ituloy to for more (years?) posts, and to maintain that RPG thingy
lol

iBlog, and iSane

labs ya!

Chapter 3: The Forced Fall

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"Wag mong hanapin ang sarap ng donut sa butas nito. Kasi kapag dinilaan mo yung butas para hanapin yung sarap... weird yun"

Hi - nakatapos ako ng sudoku!
Lo - one-man tambay sa pugad lol

Pinakanaasar na part ko sa RPG yung battle na talagang matatalo ka. Lalo na sa start, yung feeling mo kaya mong tiyagain lahat ng bwisit na halimaw at boss, then may darating na boss na mahirap patayin, pero kaya, pero talagang matatalo ka... pero ndi pa rin game over. Pinaka-memorable kong ganito sa FF3 (or 6, sa mga ndi nakaabot nito sa SNES), unang encounter kay kefka (or kay chupon ata) Normal yung start ng battle... until mapaabot mo sya sa certain HP... then sa next turn nya, may cheat-code-attack siya na deds kayo lahat! Well, tuloy yung story, kasi scripted na matatalo talaga kayo. Kaya lang... wala, asar lang. Bakit kelangan mong matalo? Eh pano kung ikaw yung manalo sa battle na yun?

Once in a while, we need to crash to Earth. Either to a) get a taste of reality or b) gauge how much work you need to put in. Either ways, it is a reality that we fail once in a while. Like me, sabog yung 1st math at soc sci exam ko. I crashed to earth, got a slap on the cheek saying "tsong, gising. ndi ka imortal pare ko" and got a gauge of how much I need to do to carry on. Pero, game over na ba? No, definetly not. Tuloy ang laban, tuloy ang buhay. I crashed to Earth to remember na nasa Earth pa rin pala ako, na marami pa kong gagawin. And of course, kelangan bumawi sa fall na yun XD

Pero... pano nga kung nanalo ka sa laban na expected na talo ka (like sora vs squall sa KH1)? Edi ayus, one-up ka kagad. Pero balang araw, babagsak ka rin. Buti nang controlled yung crash, than freak accident na baka maospital ka. Figuratively and/or literally.

Controlled Fall. Just like pro wrestling.

History is such a prick

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"Geeeeeeeeeeeek!!!"

Hi - psych 101 orientation. and then some XD
Lo - binagyo sa Casaa at Phan ><

I was at the Ateneo a few weeks ago to pickup another copy nung A2k6 dvd from Gab(by). Get and alis lang dapat... kaya lang kakatamad pa bumalik, so tambay muna with him. Tambay meaning wait for a class to end for him to get his beloved admu planner inside the room XD. So pagkakuha niya, lunch date naman kami (may isa kasi dyan whom I will not name pero will malamang comment on this XD na "nasa lib daw" at ndi makakasama... joke XD) So, we Wok Dis Way ng mga 1230 na. Yuuuum sisig... oh wait, may class pa nga pala ako ng 1. oh well XD late ng 50 mins (ndi na lang ko nag-cut, noh? XD) buti na lang kebs lang kay prof Vryan XDDD

I was real amused with Gab(by) "Don't you dare drag me to the HS. Baaad memories... It's not Gab anymore. It's Gabby. The high school Gab's dead, and the new college Gabby's here." (no, not really. but sumthing to that effect XD) What's in a name? Does a simple name change also include a drastic life(stlye) change? And, can you really kill your past?

Hindi ba sad yun? You kill your past, you purge every memory, you forget everything. All you have is a new slate and an empty self. I mean, isn't your past integral to who you are? Your past made you who you are, regardless of how good or bad it was, or how good or bad you are right now. The challenge here is how to move on, how to settle our past peacefully and not make it a burden.

I also have a lot of bad... stuff in the past, and a lot of stuff that I haven't resolved. But they don't stop me from living. They push me to live a little more.

Chapter 2 - Honeymoon's Over

Quote/Question/Theory of the day:
"Cherish your brief signing moment!"

Hi - Gaboooooooooooooooo!!!
Lo - Bad stomach. Baaaad stomach ><


In continuing with the RPG theme (siryoso ako dun! wala kasi akong natapos na RPG yung summer eh XD), may time dun na just after the starting-and-getting-to-get-the-hang part. Yung after nung napakadaling battles at medyo easy boss. Yung may new party member ka na at aalis kayo dun sa starting town para a) maglibot more at b) ituloy na yung story. Eto yung part na... medyo asar kasi a) ndi na siya ganun kadali, b) malay mo kung bigla kang may makalaban na mini-boss pala at upakan ka, c) ndi mo pa gets yung story at d) well, wala pang big thing na nangyayari. Eto rin yung part na kinda test if gusto mo talaga ituloy yung game, kasi nakatikim ka na pero after nung tikim trabaho na kagad. Yung time of disillusionment and interest.

3 weeks into college... kinda adapted na. May "party members" na (o ako yung nasama sa party, I forget), getting the hang of the "life". Ngayon, tapos na yung intro. Start na ng trabaho, tapos na yung easy part. On my own na to expand, to continue the story. Now's not the time to regret picking up the game, pero to start owning the game. Pero sa start, hindi ka naman kagad malakas diba? So, now's the time para magpalakas, to level-up na kagad para chicken na yung mga next part. Power Leveling aka buckle down to work. Haaay... I didn't want to leave the intro part just yet, pero kelangan eh. Well, nothing better to do than move on, right?

oh yeah XD